A thought

For days
Turning into weeks
Then touching
Almost a month
Standing at the edge
Hoping
Someday 
I'll swim
Not drown
Hoping and hoping
How long
To hold a hope
And stand 
Holding an edge
Self interrogation
What can make me do
Really do
A thought
A person
A thought of a person
What
Who/what
Who can inspire me
A single name
I reflected and thought
Most hurtful being
Always distant
Not to be seen
An unfulfilled dream
Now I knew
Yes,
For one 
I cannot bother swim
I can drown
The next moment
I laid my being
For the thought
Of one
As if I'll never
Live again
Ready to drown
Who cares
Even if forever I die
And that thought
Turned out to be 
The initial step
The first step
In the way of
Swim
And made me realize
I can die 
Really die 
Without 
A second thought
For someone
And that name
Turns out to be
The first step
In anything 
Nearer to death.