Repentance

Subtle entrances 
Certain disturbances
Unknown messages 
False missed calls
I knew who's doing all
I repent I responded


My heart uncontrolled
Allowed me to have a fall
There seemed none at all
I repent I went forward


I'm always proved wrong
Yes, now I know I was wrong
An illusion created
I didn't at all know
Who's who at all
I repent I shouldn't have tried at all


My self respect was torn into bits
Nothing of esteem remained all shit
Drowned in my own misery
My mind failed to stand tall
I repent I gave it name of love so called


No appearance no clear message
Yet my heart yearned an unknown pall
Hidden behind invisible curtains I imagined
He was calling me too tho' no voice heard at all
I died many a times a death not supposed at all
I repent I thought it was some spiritual call


I'll no more go on those tearful paths
He's someone else's property
He just comes and enjoys his pride ball
And watches eagerly and laughs at my each fall
I wonder bitterly why I named it love at all


I was in my youth when love was perfect to give n' choose
Mistakenly he was chosen without a glimpse
May be I heard what none could make out at all
The results are obvious I lost to gain nothing at all


Today someone again subtly calls 
Claims free love for me acts as a stalk
I know he's the same person who was long before
I curse him, Yes I curse him openly
For now I'm sure he's a villain in disguise
Who steals peace of mind assuring false love
I'll not end up in profanity at all
I'll better change my path firmly
I no more want to repent at all