I ask

Where was he all these years
I have no right to question a peer 
But then why did he come
Who asked him to play a game
Weird ways disliked each day
People helped or he arranged
Asked many no one caught with blame
Worried a lot nothing sought
Why now, whom to ask
What makes him come now 
As for me
When did I leave ask not
I waited till death left to bleed
He knew then was made aware
Still heard no plea 
I was not worthy or 
He was not competent enough
Everywhere a shield 
My screams went ignored
Now why should I know or bother
All gone in past a wasted past
Still inquires a judgement pending
High above someone's sending
I ask, why not then, why now
He's been brought
Send him away
A ghost or a shadow
I wholeheartedly pray
I want to die
Nothing left to repay
Those bitter tearful moments don't follow me....