I too can be an insane!

Seems to sit inside my head and read every bit
Its risky its dangerous its not good
At the same times lets me think n' wonder
How come it happen with someone who has not understood
A mere chance Maybe a coincidence
Or striking of a guess happens to be right somehow
Whatever it has an uneasy feeling
A temptation to correct or to add some more or delete some of it
Saying yeah you're right upto this point then this thing is not me
Oh yes its me no its again not me or a mix of an imagination
Wow must appreciate thinking a depth into psychology of human brain
Without experiencing even or may be gone through all or may be result 
Of too much reading and living those characters
An exhaustive unlimited knowledge of both good n' bad safe n' unsafe
A plot prepared what n' how the person will react and deal accordingly
Its not how you behave with me or what I say how I react spontaneously
Or thinking about what you want to listen or may be what's appropriate
Yes I act safe n' I'm supposed to as to experimentation I'm too new
Anyways what I was trying to explore why I come back to know what your
up to has nothing to do with your good or bad whatsoever ways
Its the curiosity to build more of it to learn what I've not learnt so far nor ever will perhaps
Something irks something tells still something deep which no one can see or feel
May be those allowed so may be some may be none well it happens with everyone
But this thing's different its not love not respect plain simple curiosity
Love 'cause mere word with feeling or not as a plaything is not what one says or writes
I don't accept it I deny its existence completely for different reasons 
Respect has also no meaning here as love n' respect go together 
Here its learning phase where gathering of innate behavior or behaviors acknowledged
Research is a more appropriate word and outcomes are awaited
Results will declare love, hate, respect depending factors crossing boundaries
To limitless spheres just to live, prove or what else creating a human being 
Is it human or something else..? GOD perhaps..then everyone has to bow before....
Let's wait n' watch..Life's giving opportunities and he hides not in all probabilities
Gives his glimpses yes I'm here, I'm there, I'm here too, Just see
I'm this, I can be this, Yes I can be like this too, Just have a look at me
I look and say its okay I can be the same I can do it
But for that I need to lose something more like you
A family n' my own name..
Then I'll show you I too can be an insane!