didn't stay!

genuine is hidden?
genuine not apparent?
felt and felt and felt
a stupid deed
only for you to feel
when the world denies
and you still hold on
later realize you're made 
deliberately forlorn
what should be your reaction
false hopes and dreams
with nothing in real to hold on
a never fulfilled anticipation
never to move on 
people laugh at you or 
you laugh at your sorrows
pretending all is normal
I never want to live 
a fake moment when 
I cannot face myself 
always courage to
face my fears 
dare to say
yes I loved 
but, 
he didn't stay!