That's all..

Somebody was shouting out
Due to much noise, nothing seemed clear
After much effort poor fellow
was able to tell
was in fact yelling at me
And I thought was for somebody else
As in our class
There were three people who had
similar names..
So,
Is it to me you put query?
Do I really sound that weary?
Why now?
Why not then?
Again same repeated questions..
I feel like killing you
Yes, literally killing you!
Weird I may be
And so are you
Much much more than me
Incomparable equations
Let's leave..
I was saying then..
Let me elaborate,
When..
when I was spending both moon-full and moon-less nights
on my terrace till break of dawn,
yeah right,
was always thinking about you..
When no reason others found for
swollen morning eyes though they thought
I slept more than all..
When I tore all that was beautiful hanging
on my room's wall..
When I didn't know what and why I was
doing at all,
like,
chanting days and nights not knowing you at all..
Sounds absurd..
She said, it's one sided
the other fellow bothers not..
Wise like you say,
It was not love at all..
A disease may be..
Medications cured may be..
I'm still standing some how in this world
after all happenings brought to fall..
Am I different from what I was?
I'm the same..not changed at all..
I yelled then too,
As I yell now..
Then was before those who brought you news
Now others are of no use
You're always here to abuse
So easy for me an excuse
I wouldn't apologize my ways
Nor do I mean to judge you
Have no right to do..
You write
I read sometimes write as now I do
This is what an unadulterated conscience tell me,
That's all.