I knew..

I wanted to rush into safe lap
of yours whenever she shouted
and cried and was beaten up..
Will this be also my destiny
some day in disguise..
I despised still all that my eyes
witnessed behind curtains to hide..
Tender age when children played
outside ran and had fun
I was there to hear her
sobbing stories determined
for her to fight..
You knew what I was going through
unloved aloof fighting inside
knowing I was growing differently..
You called me many times
and I denied, for I knew I had
place here to see one day
changed times..
Did they change..?
Yes, but not for me..
Amid chaos I started dreaming..
And saw I was different, quiet
Quieter than the rest, but not quitter..
There came a time, when spoke for the right
And was listened, with delight
I was able to put wrong to right..
Slow but steady was the call
And I knew I'll move on to
some worthy destination
if not fast, with some delays,
Maybe better for me than
every time put a fight..
Scared unsure yet confident enough
going through long routes
treasuring experiences that
brought upon some light
I was still dreaming,
there is someone though not seen
Who's for me, who knows me
whether I'm wrong or right
I had faith, deep inside
though nothing visible to an eye
Years have gone and I have
compromised,
b'cause dreams hang on skies so high
And there are roads to survive
Wings are torn by those whom you
know they owe you this life of strife
And promises follow natural course
Each day making your life..
Dreams watch you from far away
laughing at you as through steep
routes you stumble and slide..
And you thank the powers
things are better as you remember
they could have been worse
While how many dreams burnt away
keeping such thoughts aside..
Are they going to grab my soul
in solitude when I let them
flow on paper..
Just enough to guide..