Words mesmerized..

Small colorful flowers touched my feet

Had went so long to feel the glee

Words mesmerized..

Morning birds sang bright day assured

Thoughts gazed ahead searching some pure

Words mesmerized..

Simplest held view wonder where they grew

Happiness greeted while anguish bid adieu 

Words mesmerized..

The previous night as moon peeped through

Winds wrapped drapes stars appeared sky glued

Words mesmerized..

Bells rang in the air making night so fair

Counted moments pleased awe inspired still

Words mesmerized..

Do you wonder too, why?

I was holding your poems in hand

Reading rereading lines in between 

Mind seized and words mesmerized..

Faithless

Reveals too much?
Much still hidden!
Impermeable perhaps?
Chill waters of despair
Fills her heart's gaps!
As storm echoes
Aggravates her
Mental wrath..

Don't fret
Don't expect
Too much
Else,
Felt as a troublesome
You'll be left.
Oh, why love has so many restraints,
Complications?
Why not simple, innocent,
Free flowing?
Weakness of one,
Does it allow the other's strength?
Fiction and reality,
Relate not straight
Dark corners of soul,
Witness strength of feelings 
An encouragement by
Playful moiety
Hard to resist
Selfish Irresponsibility!
Tearing up dignity!
Yes,
Hunger of love,
A rebellion for the world,
Rage for wrong done
Faults turned to virtues
Sufferer of pain
At the hands of
A Faithless!

Inspired

Go away those moments 
When I expected n' felt
Those were dark n' heavy
Made me weep under
A negative spell
Yes, I repeat from bone
I didn't leave a stone unturned
No, not destiny
Someone's treachery was shown
Throw dust, more of dust
Bury it deep don't weep
Ashes won't speak
No one will beep a sound nor care
Did anyone care when you fell deep
You were unable to breathe
From ashes you're reborn
You were no where seen
Did heavens listened your screams
The nature witnessed and asked 
To move and you'ere able to crawl
Crawled your way out of darkness
Now when you're breathing
Life is showing you ways
Don't be distracted
Don't get worried
Don't go deep what you've buried
Dead don't come back
Even if they do
Are mere ghosts
They just attack
Are nothing
Don't make them more of anything
Light is ahead
Set yourself free
Free of sorrows
Free of yesterdays
Free of failures
Free of falls
Free of old
Tomorrow's new
Always brings new hopes
Strive to fulfill them
You're much more 
Than you once thought you were..

I'm the Lord

I'm the way,
                  you're missing..
Don't you know?


I'm the light, 
                  you're avoiding..
Don't you see?


I'm the calling, 
                     you're not heeding..
Don't you hear?


I'm the everlasting love, My child
Don't go anywhere..


You'll find solace only in Me.

Longing

Why I do relate to some words said by an unknown?
As if a story untold, unshared kept at a distant zone..


Why a song fells upon ears seems to be my own? 
When I've not sung it nor wrote in times forlorn..


Why a promise in lovers' eyes bring me a ray of hope? 
When I've never been kissed let passion gone alone..


Why I yearn for sweetness, a rapture that love brings?
While my life stands still I've to pass on my own..


For whom do my eyes search, heart silently mourns?
When the winds of whisper carry no message nor a tone..

Confused

How can it happen?
When nothing's happening..


What the eyes don't see,
The brain cannot..


Though sometimes
Brain can fill with 
Something else..


Here,
What the heart allows
Brain to see,
Brain agrees..


But eyes do not!

Not to leave anything Incomplete

After two decades of life together
He says,
"..should not have married me!"
She's well aware,
There were many things 
She should not have done.
Like leaving things behind.
They return to her
Haunt her
Take her to those places 
Where she dropped her 
Incomplete dreams
Pleading them to last..
Mistake,
Should have buried them.
She has learnt
Not to leave anything
Incomplete
That may bring back her past!

Shhh...something serious

A touch of hand here
A caress there
Forced your power
To put devil's kiss unfair
An innocence ruined
Many will be followed in line
Godliness vanish
Wickedness emerge
Dirty look 
Conscience shook
Screams silence
In a nook
Terror grips
Burns on tips
Who's to blame 
Who'll be put to shame
Its all wealth game
Easy money
Lust takes role 
In need of penny
Outer face 
Or inner grace
Lost all in a muddy race
Societal norms
Authority forms
Drama n' show
Off it goes
Abuse in the name of charity
Darkness knows their vulgarity
Beware,
From where their money comes
And where it goes
Their false pomp n' show
Hardly impresses Me
I know them much 
Much more than required 
Don't you think so..?
Let time bring to them
An appropriate fate
Gates of destiny still lies ahead!
I've Open Eyes

Pride hath its fall

Pride, has two ways
Which way do you go?


Upward it leads,
As a virtue to please


Downward fall,
A vice none stand tall


An inflation of ego
A sense of attachment


Choices n' actions
Praise n' independent


Voices n' reactions
Splendor transcendent 


Development of self
Or  high social status


Disagreement of truth
Or love of self excellence


Feels like magnanimity
Or brings vainglory?


Treason in love
Penance has a call


Forgiven not
Everlasting shot


Ask the miserable
Have you forgot?


Dreams complete
Rest till not..

Wipe those blues..

There's no one out there,
For me or you..


Mindful or mindless,
Whate'er we may say or do..


I know well,
You know me well too..

I'm learning what,
You're asking me to.. 


There's a glow in the sun like ne'er before,
A twinkling of stars sending smiles to lure..


Take my hand in yours, 
Let's walk to far away lands..


Meadows of mirth talking poetry,
Winds playing through leaves singing hymns,


Through your melodious voice,
While a flute played by me,


With skies pouring fragrant flowers, 
A journey to heavens on earth,


Few can see or understand..


Ne'er mind dear if it seems to be far from true,
At least there's enough time and space,


Still left in my humble life,
To think and write about the Godly you..


Just feel that magic,
More will be coming through..


Just keep watching, 
And wipe those blues..  :)

An irritated!

Tell me, tell me 
The real thing
You just pass time
Or is there a love like thing
I'm awake It's not fake
The time took brake
And here we meet 
To give n' take
All fantasies?
Oh that was not my idea 
When I did think of you in Siberia
Now here you've made me a subject
Of your poems, Interesting!
Nothing of my use, Sorry!
I've more to do in reality
I may write like you some day
Love'll be everywhere in words to play
And I'll make you my subject too
Same as you in present do
But I'll be different, I promise (I never break!)
I'll give you a warning before you read:
"This is a work of pure imagination,
It's mere co-incidence if it happens 
to relate to anyone living or dead!"
May be then you'll feel what I feel now,
An irritated!

better love..

Which is better love?
Reading poems of such heightened emotions
You could have never dreamt of 
Or never got evidence of it in real
Confirmation is a far far thing 
And you've to say,
Ah its nothing but a mere illusion
May be a post-movie depression?
And then you look around in your own ground
You cook, you clean, you smile n' you beam
You share you fight, you hurt n' at the end of day
Everything's all right, 
As if nothing happened it seems!
Not a word has been said and still you know well
Where your true caring, ever lasting love resides
Rest is, a mere illusion dare not believe it
Its nothing but a package to ruin your life hit
A screen hero who has many heroines to hug
Or a real life hero whose you're the only one heroine
Better ignore illusional loves till the end....
Keep your mind fit n' fine!

Here all have to learn..

God has a queer play
Allows nothing to say
Twists n' turns Own way
We can only pray
Repentance is good
Everyone understood
To repeat deeds n' deny
Saying I repent, so can again try
What a falsehood
I laugh at such creatures
In attires of humans
They commit mistakes openly
There's no good will to dismay
Still they brag n' boast to limits
Thinking others blind fools
Knowing their strengths perhaps
Irony is people allow them to say
Louder they say they're better heard
Then there is one who says nothing
Is busy doing his bit under the scorching sun
No one to appreciate his contribution
I laugh and feel better each time I see such creatures
I understand their ways much better
And they think I'm one of those in the crowds
They say, they repent Ha they've yet to learn
Many more things in return
Getting themselves disgraced showing stronger 
Are they proving they're some super human
Just to keep mum and follow the burn
Throwing acids on others while pouring nectar on their ego
Is it a human conduct from any direction or turn
They'll never learn no matter how many scriptures they copy n' burn
And I laugh at them..not waiting for any day to get my chance to say
I simply observe in simplicity as this is the world where all have to learn..

I too can be an insane!

Seems to sit inside my head and read every bit
Its risky its dangerous its not good
At the same times lets me think n' wonder
How come it happen with someone who has not understood
A mere chance Maybe a coincidence
Or striking of a guess happens to be right somehow
Whatever it has an uneasy feeling
A temptation to correct or to add some more or delete some of it
Saying yeah you're right upto this point then this thing is not me
Oh yes its me no its again not me or a mix of an imagination
Wow must appreciate thinking a depth into psychology of human brain
Without experiencing even or may be gone through all or may be result 
Of too much reading and living those characters
An exhaustive unlimited knowledge of both good n' bad safe n' unsafe
A plot prepared what n' how the person will react and deal accordingly
Its not how you behave with me or what I say how I react spontaneously
Or thinking about what you want to listen or may be what's appropriate
Yes I act safe n' I'm supposed to as to experimentation I'm too new
Anyways what I was trying to explore why I come back to know what your
up to has nothing to do with your good or bad whatsoever ways
Its the curiosity to build more of it to learn what I've not learnt so far nor ever will perhaps
Something irks something tells still something deep which no one can see or feel
May be those allowed so may be some may be none well it happens with everyone
But this thing's different its not love not respect plain simple curiosity
Love 'cause mere word with feeling or not as a plaything is not what one says or writes
I don't accept it I deny its existence completely for different reasons 
Respect has also no meaning here as love n' respect go together 
Here its learning phase where gathering of innate behavior or behaviors acknowledged
Research is a more appropriate word and outcomes are awaited
Results will declare love, hate, respect depending factors crossing boundaries
To limitless spheres just to live, prove or what else creating a human being 
Is it human or something else..? GOD perhaps..then everyone has to bow before....
Let's wait n' watch..Life's giving opportunities and he hides not in all probabilities
Gives his glimpses yes I'm here, I'm there, I'm here too, Just see
I'm this, I can be this, Yes I can be like this too, Just have a look at me
I look and say its okay I can be the same I can do it
But for that I need to lose something more like you
A family n' my own name..
Then I'll show you I too can be an insane!

A picture..

Picture of a
Kneeling girl
Praying hard
Night n' day
Her pink dress
With fine lace
Full of grace
In a small room
Watches a doll
In full yellow
Round black eyes
As if saying "hello"
Flowery drapes
Make all perfect
Books abound
Not a sound
A music light
Plays in background
Still someone weeps
A thousand tears
Searches someone
To allay her fears
She'll know someday
She's wasting energy
Precious and clear
All is there to do is
Be with herself n' cheer
But for time being
Nothing comforts..

I ask

Where was he all these years
I have no right to question a peer 
But then why did he come
Who asked him to play a game
Weird ways disliked each day
People helped or he arranged
Asked many no one caught with blame
Worried a lot nothing sought
Why now, whom to ask
What makes him come now 
As for me
When did I leave ask not
I waited till death left to bleed
He knew then was made aware
Still heard no plea 
I was not worthy or 
He was not competent enough
Everywhere a shield 
My screams went ignored
Now why should I know or bother
All gone in past a wasted past
Still inquires a judgement pending
High above someone's sending
I ask, why not then, why now
He's been brought
Send him away
A ghost or a shadow
I wholeheartedly pray
I want to die
Nothing left to repay
Those bitter tearful moments don't follow me....

that particular..

Am I trapped 
I ask myself
Is there a place
Where I can just be me, myself
To be seen by
All, in this world
Except that..
An element not good
Harmful, I may say that
Tarnishing my mind
Spoiling my life
How could he ask
A relationship
When am someone's wife
May be from another world
Where it happens so weird
He was bitter sweet
A nauseating piece
Ah, says  loves n' cares
Has many indeed to make with pairs
Who's to tell him he puts 
My world upside down when stares
Bad intentions
(What good hidden behind?)
I was much better when I was with strangers
Who didn't know me, near or far
An adventurous world to try my luck
Disgusting manners, what he wants to prove
He's better than all yet has to move
I've read him enough now need to go
Is there a place where don't find him sure
Just be with the rest of world
Except that particular..
Out of my mind!

I'm no more the one whom now I sourly hate

He just takes takes and takes
And when he feels like again taking
He gives his giving he fakes
I simply hate his ways
Arrogance is his make
He's free so let him be
A wanderer not to my taste 
Nothing for me to please
I don't want to be a fool
I've shed tears for him making pool
What's fun in that?
I repent my ways thrown away such tools
I've gotta be a li'l bit selfish man
I've become a taker now
I pick the best and possess it, enjoy my victory
And give only when the other's genuine not fake
I don't risk and allow others to mock at my life
And if need be I dare to face the wrong n' slap
I'm no more the one whom now I sourly hate

thanking my fate..

For me Love is always with in reach 
Not to stray away whenever please
Possession is my way of love
He who accepts with joy
Doesn't call it a rope
My caring ways don't wait for his answered care
Free flow of love between two must share
A bit of spoiling here and there
No complaints no sorrows always laughter declare
Most important,
Never losing interest sharing the deepest of secrets
Without any shame or fear
After silly fights n' shouts sacrifices made to real care
A secure feeling in my heart He's just mine
No matter where he tours in the whole world
Always eager to get back home on time
With his family to love n' share care
I think I've already such person in my life (my hubby :))
just recapitulating in verses thanking my fate

Perfect

Where are you my perfect love
You came to me we made a lovely pair of dove
I waited for you so long and you proved me all wrong
Now better don't put me on trials hear my call
Don't you know I'm the one for whom you've come all along
Why you play with me such hide and seek
Always on a search I'm made so weak
Anyways, I'm tired now
You go away from my thoughts
I'll do something better 
Like paying a bow before what God brought
For reminding who I am, I'll reap what I sow
And futile love never gives any returns
It simply ruins you decays you takes you to unsafe insanity
There's no coming back then..
By the way who cares a painful bitter death?
I die alone




(Ha ha not used to writing such poems, 
just trying my bit of imagination!
As usual ends up in a mess..)